LittLe AnGeLs

It's Sunday once again so hubby and I attended a mass this morning at 730 and it is the feast of Sto Nino - one of the patron saints of children. After the mass, the priest asked all the children to come infront of the altar for a final blessing. I can't help but feel sad again since I should have been there if only she is still alive inside me. I just told myself that in due time, I will also be able to bring a child for blessing. The pain still lingers but with the help of prayers and hubby's unconditional love, I am able to go through it. I know we will overcome this trial together.

I always try to keep myself busy and one of my favorite past time is surfing the net. I usually check my FB account, Gmail and my personal blog site. God is really good since HE always sends good people to guide us. One of them is my husbby's cousin -Joelyn. Actually, I was inspired to post another entry since she gave me a very nice poem. I was really touched and it did easen up the pain we are having right now. (To JL, thanks much my dear cousin. We love you!)


When GOD call little children to dwell with HIM above,
We mortals sometime question the wisdom of HIS love.
For no heartache compares with the death of one small child
Who does so much to make our world seem wonderful and mild.

Perhaps GOD tires of calling the aged to his fold
So HE picks a rosebud before it can grow old
GOD knows how much we need them, and so HE takes but few
To make the land of heaven more beautiful to view
Believing this is difficult still somehow we must try

The saddest word mankind knows
Will always be "Good-bye".
So when a child departs, we who are left behind must realize
God loves children, angels are hard to find

.... her sweet message, as I quote ....

"just want to share a poem ate. hope this will help even a little bit to lessen the pain you feel ryt now..godbless you and kuya olways ate..wish you ol the best."

mY iNsaNiTy

I feel crazy, I feel lost
I feel like cryin' out loud
Whenever I'm missin' you
I go out of my sanity

My Lord, is this normal?
I felt my heart was torn into pieces
The whole me was crashed
With the lost of my baby angel

But everything has a purpose
What happened was part of God's plan
I always believed of my faith
And will never let go of it

So my Lord I have a favor to ask
Thy will be done
I know this is just a trial for us
And in your own time, we will be healed

GoodBYe my BabY AnGeL

Three days ago, you were just inside me
I can still feel you kicking and stretching
The happiness I feel every time you are awake
Cannot be replaced with anything in this world

Suddenly, everything changed
With just a drop of blood, it all started
It all went too fast that I can't imagine
With just a few hours, you are about to come out

We are so happy to be with you
To hold you in my arms and feel your warmth
However, there is a right time for that
At this moment my love, it is not yet right




For now, all we can say is GOODBYE.
But this is not yet the end of all
I know we will meet someday
At the right time, we will be together

Baby, before you go please listen to Mommy
For you to tell GOD my only wish
That you remain always on our side
To be our guide, our ANGEL for life

bebe@20 weeks

Tomorrow, December 24th my baby turns 5 months! Time runs so fast and after a month, we can already know the gender (this is what we've been waiting for!) I've been so excited and wanting to know if I will be naming a girl or a boy. I've been wanting to buy baby stuff already but oldies say that I should do it on a later time. Huh! One of my friends advised me not to have an ultrasound for it to be a surprise one but I instantly said "No!" since I really wanted to prepare the baby's stuff and other things in advance. For me, it would be easier and convenient to have all the stuff prepared with proper "color". Pink and Blue are very important colors in a baby's life as well as for the parents. I don't want to guess every now and then until I give birth or, just buy stuff which are unisex. (it's hard to find those nowadays!)

I am so excited to have an ultrasound next month on my check up, however, Dra will be giving birth as well! I have no choice but to wait for her :( In that case, it would be done by February which is an additional agony for me. hahaha I just hope GOD grants us what we are praying for and if not, it's fine! It is still a blessing and for as long as the baby is healthy, we are very thankful for it.

So, Christmas is around the corner! Our little angel is the best gift I've received so when hubby asked me what gift I want, I can't think of anything. Maybe, its because I am so blessed in many ways and that, this little angel completes us.

To GOD be the Glory! Thank you for this gift of life.
..And to our Lord Creator, Happy Happy Birthday!

bebe@14 weeks

Last Saturday, we visited my OB-Gyne again and it was a very positive one. We were so happy since my lab test results were all good and so far my sugar is normal. Dra said that if my FBS (Fasting Blood Sugar) result for next month is good, we might stop the intake of Metformin (medicine which controls sugar). I was also surprised since I have not gained weight for more than a month now. Actually, I am only allowed to gain a kilo per month since I am already overweight (huhuhu).
Baby's heartbeat is very fast and Dra did not have a hard time locating it unlike before. She said that my baby also grew bigger and soon I should expect some movements. Actually, I am getting excited each month since by Christmas time, my tummy will be bulging.

This is how my baby looks like at 14 weeks :

BaBy DyoCo

I Just had another ultrasound last Tuesday to make sure that the blood formed inside my womb is already gone. I was so happy when Dra. Ann told me that my baby is stronger and the heartbeat is even faster. We were so worried since the first ultrasound showed a blood formation inside which can actually lead to the death of the baby if not given proper attention. Though I still had some spotting the week before, I am now confident that we are both safe. All I need is more rest and was advised to get back to work by the first week of November since the baby will turn 3 months by then. That will be the end of the danger for me.
Right now, I am still extra careful since I might still bleed anytime. But, thanks to my OB-Gyne who is very caring and really shows genuine concern for our safety.

d MiraCLe!

Few months ago, I was diagnosed with PCOS (Polycistic Ovaries). To cure it, I went through a lot of blood tests and medications. I never thought that I will get pregnant easily with my condition. It did take a lot of patience and effort.

Last July, I was delayed for more than 40days and got quite excited to the fact that I might be pregnant. But I was not! I was quite disappointed then. So, the next month I did not expect anything. I was again delayed but never thought of being pregnant. Until, it came to a point that I got bored in waiting for my menstruation after 1 and 1/2 months. It was 6 am of Sept 22 and I was just having my morning visit to the bathroom. Then I saw the PT and just thought of having a test. To my surprise, I got two red lines after just 10 seconds. I was shocked for a few seconds then I ran towards hubby who was still sleeping that time. I told him that it's positive! He can't believe it so he asked for the PT. That's the only time he believed me :) Then what happened next were so memorable! I can't forget how tight he hugged me. The smile on his face was so sweet and I can't hold the tears which fell down my cheeks. That was such a moment!

And now, I am 7-8 weeks pregnant and I am getting excited each day. Though I was advised to take a bed rest for 2 weeks, I wanna make the most out of it. I hope that everything turns out fine after 2 weeks.